Bishop to Queen 4

^{Everything is such fun in the beginning,}

^{when it’s new and undiscovered.}

^{i’ll try almost anything.}

^{What is meant by almost?}

^{All these stupid sick shit roles we play,}

^{all this pretending, why?}

^{i want to believe there’s something}

^{behind the curtain}

^{besides a windowless stone wall}

^{Something inexplicable}

^{his/her majesty of everything/}

^{living/dead/never existed.}

^{William Blake said, “Either be a poet or a painter.}

^{Being both muddies audiences, and discredits one or the other.”}

^{Actually, Blake didn’t say that. i am lost.}

^{is it possible to love after what has happened?}

^{the rage, hurt, disappointment of betrayal.}

^{my ex still stalks}

^{as recently as two mornings ago,}

^{all her exaggerations, over-reactions, fury.}

^{Why so desperate to return to crime scene?}

^{An admission of her own guilt?}

^{Excessive compulsive wound licking (psychogenic alopecia)?}

^{Another excuse for getting drunk?}

^{When we waited for the elevator going down}

^{You said, “Let’s just get this over with.”}

^{i understood completely.}

^{i, who worships my own death.}

^{i, who pisses on my own grave.}

^{i, who gets bored faster than speed of light.}

^{i, who suspects killing around every corner.}

^{i, who sleeps restless.}

^{i, who worries.}

^{i, who loves women.}

^{i, who does not understand women.}

^{i, who is a woman.}

^{i, who bangs the dude in L.A. to advance my career.}

^{i, who is a nobody.}

^{i, a man with no place to stand.}

^{i, who belongs to a family of}

^{blustering flirts, flatterers,}

^{kidders, thieves.}

^{We sit at the table,}

^{monkey-wrenching hand over fist lives.}

^{Forget about the eyes.}

^{Watch the fingers.}

^{Don’t listen to the speeches.}

^{Words are intentional distractions.}

^{Where’s your wallet?}

^{Gypsies? No, we’re not gypsies,}

^{more upper-crusty, yes, very well-connected secrets.}

^{Do the names Dante, or Cervantes, or Nabokov mean anything to you?}

^{No, none of them are our kin,}

^{but we know people who know people,}

^{infidelities in very high places.}

^{All i’m saying is,}

^{once you reach a certain level,}

^{we’re all family.}

^{i will make success happen,}

^{with or without you.}